Long time nv update my blog le... haiz.. these few days realli happened alot of things...things tt i nv realli expected...
Wat is the main causes... is A stupid game...which he is sooo obessed in....n cause of tt... we quarrelled... n cause of tt we almost broke up... He said.. it is not jus because of game... it is jus tt i m too much... too unreasonable...childish n cannot control my emotion well....Well.. i think most of the gals mayb b tt way too....N mayb..he feel so tired abt our daily conflict n quarrellin...N he said tt.. if i wanna break... tts fine to him,...Y?dun u find is ridiculous? TTS FINE TO HIM...didnt he love mi?y izzit fine!!!!
I cried...i thought tt it is realli the end of our reltionship... i m v sad...i tried not to cry.. but jus dunno y.. tears keep rollin down my eyes without stoppin....when i think back of the good times with him.. i cried again...Listenin to some sentimential songs... tt make mi cry again.haiz... i m such a fragile gal after all...
But at night.. ker came...when she saw mi.. i think i looked fine... n i can smile n joke as per normal...But who knows... who knows how sad m i feelin inside of mi...I m jus a fragile gal with a brave front...
N this progess of cryin n cryin continued for 2 days...i was wonderin.. did he ever missed mi or feelin sad too??But.. i dunno dun think so...N today.. he suddenly turn back to normal...I m wonderin.. whether we r still frens or couple?? N i asked him tt... he said..he nv asked for break at all.. he is jus askin mi abt it....o.O
Dunno y... i dun feel happy at all...But i feel relieved,...so werid...i dunno y m i feelin relieved..mayb the problem is finally comes to a stop n also this is not the end of our realtionship?? i realli dunno..
Hmmm... but i m feelin tt i m being together with a guy tt dun love mi...A realtionship tt has no future...tts so insecure...But still... i have choosen to stay with it...mayb because i still love him...still dun wanna let him go...M i such a stupid gal??lolx.... 我被自己困在自己设下的圈套
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