As usually today i went to ben's house...we have the same routine again.. playin online game with him n watch a bit of the ghost rider DVD...After tt.. he continued his game again...As usually again.. we have some small fights abt the game thingy...
Jus dunno y i have a urge to tell him how i felt sooo long...wat i have tolerate... till now i think it is jus too much for mi to take it anymore....I showed him attitude..hope he will notice mi alitte.. hope he will b concern abt mi.. But he nv...haiz... After some time.. he finally asked mi y m i behavin tt way.. keep showin him attiude...
At first i didnt know wat to said...cause i really feel like cryin... But later... i told him... "i feel tt u dun care abt mi..all u care is game game game!!!" i really can take it anymore...i really felt so neglected by u.., since soooo long... u nv even called mi in the night...tts realli disappoint mi alot.. As i told him long time ago... y still didnt he called!!!!
I doubt my position in his heart...i felt tt i m jus a passerby to him instead of somebody to b treasured...
I doubt he listens to my words...wat i told him... he nv changed...
Sometimes i realli think tt i jus realli meant nth to him... havin mi n havin mi not... is the same....
I doubt his love towards mi...which make mi feel so neglected n insecure...scare tt he would left mi soon...i knew tt day may come... but hope it is not a sad ending....
But when i asked him...Do u love mi??he said yes....
Do i have a place in ur heart?he said yes....
i choose to believe in everything he said....But still.. action speaks louder then words
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